November 09, 2014

The narrow passage


Each moment with Segev is special to me, though I find my mind wandering more often to fantasies of an easier life, mostly as I drive to house calls,  trying to provide pain relief for others as physical therapist.

I feel gutted that these fantasies don’t include my son.  I don’t dream of taking him to the park, to the beach or to visit a local ice cream parlor. When I fantasize about traveling, of going on a vacation, I don’t imagine taking him with me, to look at the sites, visit friends or family, as though i would be carefully watching his wonderment at the diversity of experiences to be had.